Thursday, March 14, 2019

F**k the Fear

I have always been a very optimistic person. If there is anything wrong with me, I experiment with different things and find a way out. My experiments are not successful entirely, but they do have a positive affect. I've been very happy and that proves that they have worked.

However, lately, negativity has been residing in me like a determined guest who refuses to leave the house even when I fail to feed him!

I don't know if it is aging or something that I did or did not do, my health is getting worse. Everything is slowly becoming more difficult than it was before and it kills me a little each day. I am doing everything that is in my hands - I exercise like I've never exercised before, I eat healthier, and I experiment some more. But when I have a bad day, I become anxious and stressed over the state of my health in the coming time.

And this stress that makes things worse. So I started listening to more music, doing pranayam, watching inspirational videos, the works! I told you, I try everything that I can. I even go out when I don't feel like going out because I feel change is good, meeting people is a distraction and that it will help me.

The other day I was watching a video in which Sonali Bendre describes her journey with Cancer. With each disease, you don't know how it is until you go through it. The take-away from her story was how she has become fearless in life because she faced the hardest challenge in her life and came out triumphant. She said she does everything that she fears because that makes her a stronger person.

I've been fearing a girl's trip. Yes, yes.. who fears a girls only trip? I do! You see, I have several difficult moments in a day which the Boy handles with much elan. Right now I'm teaching my girls what all they will have to do when they do travel with me. Sweethearts that they are, they are ready to manage everything. Should I buy them a gift? We'll see!

The second take-away from her interview touched a chord with me as well. She said she was not at ease when she lost her hair during chemotherapy. For a public figure who endorsed all hair-products, this was a massive blow. But Sonali Bendre, very courageously, came out with her bald appearance and inspired a million others to be comfortable in their own skin. She said that she told herself that I am not comfortable, but I will be.

That is what I've been telling myself too - I am not comfortable, but I will be.

I saw a few more videos after that and just learnt that don't feed the pest called anxiety. The more you repeat the issues in your head, the roomier it gets for them to thrive. Instead, tell your fears how you are stronger and how you will not let them win.

I have a new mantra for me now and it is called F**k the Fear. I try to repeat it, smile often, and do the best that I can do. I do my Karma. There are times when I forget all the good things I have read and seen and hence feed the pest. I have sleepless nights. But I know it gets better, I tell myself. I repeat.

So I am here..albeit after ages..repeating it.. telling the world. Writing it makes it permanent, doesn't it?

Write woman, write more and do F**k the Fear!

P.S. I don't swear. This is the only time I've been using this word in this blog or in real life. It's time.

Sunday, January 6, 2019

The Story of an ignored Smart Watch


I use technology, but I don’t get technology. I just know rose gold and slim device and little bit of megapixels, but you talk dual core with me and I’ll avoid you for the rest of my life. It is like cricket: I watch it just to see Virat Kohli sending out flying kisses to Anushka when he hits a century.



You see, I always want to be in the game, always in the know, but I am a regular girl with very girly characteristics and this is the story of my fitness band:

Four years back there was a contest on Twitter. I participated in it with all my creativity. It was related with technology and how, being a wife, I hated it when my husband paid more attention to it. It was a very emotional subject for me and I went all out.

My wit wanted the mobile phone to turn red when my husband looked at the screen for more than 15 minutes. Genius idea was stolen by the applications world and they now have app locks. I have one for my Instagram wherein if I look at Taimur’s pictures for more than 15 minutes a day, it locks it.

If you are judging me right now remember that there are three fingers pointing right back at you.

Anyway, coming back to that contest, my tweet won me a fitness watch. Yes, four years back, when the world had not even started sauntering 10,000 steps every day.



My first instinct was to sell it. With the money, I could buy a dress one size smaller, look at it every day and then become fit. This dress would have more power than any gadget showing me how much exercise I did during the day.

Laziness took over -  the watch was in my closet for a year or so, clothes were bought and discarded, and my size increased as usual.

On a certain Diwali cleaning, I found the watch in a corner and thought I will gift it to my brother since newer models had come and no one would buy this old dude now.

Laziness is in the genes - my brother never got around wearing it. Also, free things seem to give him diarrhea, my nani use to wisely state in a very proud tone.

Come 2017, some 2.5 years after I had won the watch, my mom did her Holi cleaning and found the unlucky band hidden in a corner. She asked me if this was mine. I rolled my eyes and replied affirmatively. She dumped it in my bag and so I had to bring it back.

Imagine my euphoria when I discovered that the charger had been lost in this process. Now why will I invest in a thing from Baba Adam ka Zamana. If I did want to wear a watch, I will get a new, swanky one. The prudent husband got into my brain, pulled out all my devious plans, went online and bought me a charger.

This watch now looked too huge as compared to all the sleek ones around. Imagine using the Sony Ericsson phone of the 90’s in this era. I made up some silly excuses and forgot about the watch yet again.

Then, on the eve of November 28, I was at the airport waiting for my friend from 8 years back. We had not met during this time but had kept in touch due to awesome technology. She had grown from a newly married girl to a mother of two and I was excited to meet her.

She walked out gracefully with her husband and two babies and did not look a minute older than how she looked 8 years back. I kept complimenting her on her fitness and told her how I was totally inspired.

Her only reply – Mehnat karte hain (We word hard).

I wanted to find chullu bhar paani and drown in my sorrow. Here I was - loving my life, living each moment, enjoying my child-free existence and completely ignoring my health. While she was doing it all, and how!

My girly jealousy kicked in. I wanted to fit in that dress I had worn with her on a particular New Year’s Eve some 8 years back. Ignoring all my egoistic tendencies, I asked her for tips.

She gave many but the two that stuck around were that she logged her calories and used a fitness tracker so that she at least does her steps every day.

I went into my locker, took out the grandpa watch and its charger. I handed over my phone to the husband so that he does the Bluetooth stuff and set the watch for me. He was laughing on the inside and doubting my commitment to it.

I told him I will wear it for a month and if I am successful in doing so I will get a nice golden one from #GetFitWithFlipkart.

This was me on the first day of wearing it. After a month, I am happy to report that I am on my way to ordering a Smart Wearable from Flipkart.



As you can see from the messages exchanged, I did lose a kilo. I am more active than I was in the whole of 2018. I am now looking at Nits, Outboard Storage, Battery Life and a lot of other technical terms.

But mostly I am looking at that Fitbit pendant, Luxury fitness watch in Rose Gold and all the girly things that only a FIT girl can buy…





I am also looking at some crazy #SmartHomeSolutions so that I can Ok Google, play dance numbers on YouTube without having to find the remote and only concentrate on shaking a leg or two to burn some calories. 

But mostly I want a Google home and Smart lights to go with it because increasing step count by switching off the lights doesn't go too well with my lazy personality. 

After all, it is all about the balancing it all, right?


10 Reasons why you SHOULD not buy a Smart Watch

I'm rebellious and so is my husband. If someone tells me not to do something, I would definitely want to do it. My husband is the same and this happened in our household a few months back:

You see, I am your regular next-door wife - I already knew something was not right with this gadget. I told my husband a million times not to buy a smart watch but he went and bought a cool looking one off #GetFitWithFlipkart any way. Within a day I was reassured that this device had potential of ruining our marital bliss. Just like sports, hubby dearest loved it and was glued to it making me feel like the other woman in the house.


I faked some attitude of I-don't-care and messaged my besties about the potential hazards. Now I am already dealing with the mess, but if your spouse is on his computer looking for various deals that the Smart Wearable section on Flipkart has, this is the list you go to. Fill his mind with possible dangers, use your magical powers and mesmerise him with the ordeals he will have to face if he does buy a smart watch... these are just ten of the possible risks, I am sure the wife in you will be able to concoct many more.

Deprives you of Gold and Silver ornaments

A smart watch costs a minuscule of what a luxury watch would cost. The only advantage is that it tells you multiple things instead of just time. You deprive yourself of a glitzy item that makes you look like a millionaire. A smart watch ONLY makes you look healthy, and really, who cares about that socially, eh?

By the way, I accidentally stepped into a gadget store recently and saw this watch that comes in Gold/Silver/Rose Gold bracelet shape or a pendant. It was so pretty that I was almost lured into buying this freakish device. Why so many colours, shapes and sizes? Stick to dorky designs!




Makes you a bad liar

This point works in our favour, but ladies, anything to save our marriage, right?

So when you receive a message, any message, this watch sends you a notification and you can read that message. There are people in this world who fake being extremely busy without having the time to look at their phones. But with a watch, you absolutely cannot tell your wife that you missed her message. She knows well how much you stare at it when a cricket match is on. God forbid if you say you missed her name on the notifications.



Makes you Lazy

On a recent trip to my place, my dad had his smart watch on all the time. Now he is no walker. After every few hundred steps he would say he is done for the day. At the end of 5 days, he said that he had cumulatively walked 35000 steps which is more than he walks in 10 days and because of THAT he is very tired and will sit back at home and relax. Needless to say, we left him home and went out anyway with mom because we had not done our 10,000 steps for the day!

See, for a person like him, the watch makes you lazy. Although I am pretty sure that without a watch he would have made us sit at home much before the ‘massive’ 35000 mark.




Makes you too available

Remember the time you saw a number blinking on your screen and you did not answer that call? Remember how you told that person the next time you had a chat that your phone was on charging and you are ‘sorry’ you missed his call?

Well, with the smart gadget flashing the call on your wrist, that special someone would know you were avoiding him. Do you want a sarcastic message on Facebook from him especially curated for you?

Yeah, now we are talking.




Makes you ‘un’cool

Let’s face it – only those who care about their health and awareness will wear a smart watch. It makes you look like a fitness freak who will not eat pakoras and drink cola – now who wants to hang out with that dude?

Truth be told, people who monitor their blood pressure and heart rate live a healthier and a more fulfilling life, but they are a pain to those around them.

Do you want to live a better life, err, I mean be that person?



They make for horrible gifts

Suppose you don’t have this watch and you buy one for your spouse/friend on Flipkart. He will start tracking his health, get more active on social media, will be able to hear music on the go, and the works.

If he does use the watch in its full capacity, he will potentially become slimmer than you. Can you take that chance?

You can’t.



You can’t fake sickness

It is your wife’s best friend’s birthday. You despise that lady. You come home from work and feign a fever. Since you have come from your boring job, you do look sick. You get excused right away.

Buttt, with a smart watch, your darling wife wraps her arms around you, opens your device and checks your pulse. This in-house doctor takes away your freedom and you have to go air-kiss and wish that Shabana whom you absolutely hate.

Tch!



Makes you Run out of Excuses

The dreaded device has a function called find my device. It helps you find your phone which you have lost 1008 times in the last one year. 434 times it was lost under the sofa and 1008 minus 434 times you made up this story because you were busy finishing up an episode on Netflix.

With ‘find my device’ you can’t even watch television in peace or read reddit/quora. You have to be punctual or be more creative with your stories.

Can you do that?



It can be nagging

There is an ass-print on your sofa which is a proud achievement from many, many hours of sitting. It is your cozy spot. Sometimes, on a special Saturday, you sit there facing the television for seven hours straight so that you finish a season before anyone else does.

Trust me, this watch will not let you do that since it has a timer that tells you to get moving when you have been sedentary for a long time. Now you already have a mummy/wife/boss for that, do you need another device for the same?




Takes away the Fun

In our house, it is a big deal as to who gets into the bed first. This is because the one who gets in last has to switch off all the lights.

Last night, my darling husband took a leisurely stroll to the bed. He was not at all unhappy about the fact that I beat him. When he slid under covers, I gently reminded him that he had lost the race and had to get up again to switch off the lights. I even let out a triumphant cry.

He smiled back, used the voice assistant on his watch and the lights went off.

Smart Lights? Ugh!



I let out a tiny tear, sighed heavily and decided to write this post warning all wives.

Either I will have the most golden, sparky, smart watch that has more features than his does, or I will bring this evolution to an end. 

And after writing this post I am going to buy Smart Home solutions from Flipkart's #SmartHomeRevolution so that I beat him to everything else in the house.

 Yeah, marital bliss will come back when I Ok Google  in a sultry tone to turn on Romantic lights before he taps his wrist watch! 

Tuesday, December 25, 2018

2018 - The Year that Was!


Ho! Ho! Ho!
Where did the year go?!

It was only yesterday that I was stranded at an unknown airport with complete strangers on the New Year's eve. I shed out a tear or two because my plans could not materialize and I was away from the Boy on this fun day. After relieving myself of the distress, I had one of the most memorable evenings of my life.

So yes, that set the trend for new experiences in the year that I am always so game for!

This year I spent a lottttt of my days in a pain that was and still hard to diagnose. Somehow I managed to forget the agony and move on each time it happened. Frankly, despite the pain, I declare 2018 to be one of the best years, you want to know why? Well...

I found a new best friend. We meet three times a week. We exercise together for an hour. We share stories and discuss a lot of things. Will she be able to help me with my struggles? I don't know for sure. What I do know is that she has given me a new hope that 2017 took away from me. I was in a state of constant worry during the last year. With her, I am in a state of constant appreciation and gratitude.

What else can I ask from a therapist? That's all I look forward to in life.

What else happened in 2018? I wrote much lessor than 2017. I blame it on my new best friend. She is very demanding!

We took our first cruise, and boy! What an experience! This vacation will be etched in our hearts forever and I worry if any other cruise that we take, which we definitely will, would come any close. I met three sisters in the cruise. The oldest was 80 and the youngest was 72. They are the inspiration I was looking for all my life and found it on the table next to ours. We went to eat in the dining hall just to meet them. I wish I had their number, I wish I could talk to them.. next time I won't be so hesitant.

Our second trip to Oktoberfest was a lot of fun as well. We danced and laughed and had beer and ate a lottttt of pork. Oh, I am so nostalgic now!

We had several visitors this year who stayed with us. Even though it gets a little tiring, it is an amazing feeling to have people visit you. Bahrain is not a tourist destination and so you know that these people don't really come only for a holiday. They come to meet you and have a little fun on the side. And now I've become a little cool with visitors as well - I can remain calm when the house becomes messy, I can sleep even if there are children making a noise outside my room, I can order in when I think I can't cook.. umm, maybe too chill?

Did we get lucky this year, let me think. I won a USD 500 voucher for travel, I won a glass of wine, I got a couple of vouchers from blogging contests, and got USD 500 from travel insurance for baggage delay...haha! Free money is money won!

Anyway, so my 2018 was very, very nice. I think my 2019 will be nicer. Now, I have to go and meet my best friend. After that I will write for a blogging contest and strive to achieve the goal of making 2019 nicer.

Yes people, you have to make your year better. No one else will come and do that for you.

Ho! Ho! Ho!
2019 I'll love you, I know!

Wednesday, October 17, 2018

A Punjabi, a Wierdo and an Alcoholic walk into a Map #TheBlindList


September 2016

Nisha Planning Punjabi – that’s what they call me. Google Street is my favourite companion. I devour reviews and I download maps and transport applications before I reach a destination. I read on the history of the country before going there; it’s economics – well, whatever is on the Wikipedia page is embedded in my encyclopedia of a brain. High rated restaurant names are on my fingertips – after all, I start following the destination’s Instagram page from months in advance.

Yes, yes, probably a local can ask me for recommendations in his city and he would be surprised. THAT is why Planning is my middle name. You can read about the Punjabi part of it here, but this post is not about that!

There are pain-in-the-backside kind of excel files on my desktop that I constantly look at. If there was a person keeping track on this particular travel website, he would ban me thinking I am a spammer because I go there several times a day. I am constantly looking for travel inspiration ideas for the destinations on my mind.

Screenshot of my excel file from my last trip to Baltics
 in July


Here is where I explain why I am NOT a weirdo - it is just how I like to travel. If you have seen Monica on FRIENDS on television, you will know we are not a rare breed. Some people find us adorable because of our quirks. And if you are anything like my husband, you would be relieved because you will not even have to lift a finger before and during your travelling. Like he says, he goes on organised tours customised for the both of us by me!

October 2016

My middle name is overpowered by the strength of my last name which signifies I am a Sindhi and NOT a Punjabi. Wait, what? Since you didn’t read the post I directed you to, here is the gist of it: I am a Sindhi but my surname is Punjabi because some people in my community have this surname. Why? As I said, this post is not about THAT!

So, when this can’t-leave-this-deal on Lufthansa came in October 2016, I had to be spontaneous.

We were getting tickets to quite a few destinations in under 250 USD. There was no time to think – it was a one day offer to be redeemed on the same day and travel within the next one month. We had a long weekend coming up, leaves were hard to come by and so we had to travel during the same week. The sweet guys at German embassy had given us a 3-year Schenghen visa on our last trip to Europe. And since it was October, a comparatively low tourist season in European countries, we knew hotel will not be a problem.

Out of some 20 cities on offer in Europe, we closed our eyes and put a finger on one. I did not know then that we were being blessed with MAGIC!

Image source

The next few days are a daze – I had some chores to finish and had absolutely no time to plan or investigate the destination. We picked a hotel purely based on its ratings and did not care much. I was a nervous wreck – will I be able to sleep in that room, will it be close to public transport, will it be clean… well, I calmed myself by telling me that if a nine out of ten rating on all these aspects will not make me happy, nothing else will!

We packed one jacket each and 2 pairs of jeans with some t-shirts. I had no time to think what I will wear on each day, forget shopping for new clothes for new pictures! What will my socially active friends think – I have no new clothes? I did NOT have time to contemplate on that.

With very little hope and lots of jitters, I stepped on the plane with the Boy and our cheap flight tickets. The Sindhi in me was very happy, the planner, well, she was annoyed and baffled at this new turn of events.

We reached Prague at 7 in the evening. The journey was extremely comfortable, but I was not. It is in the flight that I revise my notes for a perfect trip. I was reading a book, A BOOK on this one!

Anyway, after taking a taxi to the hotel and checking in, we just wandered in the by-lanes for dinner and called it a night.

If I had to tell you about our first day in this city in one word, I would say 36000 steps!

A screenshot from my Instagram page that day

 See, the tourist information kiosks in each city gives you the basic top 10 or some locations to visit. The Hop-on-Hop-Off bus covers major tourist attractions and you can easily see the city without planning. However, one thing I did not tell you about me is that even though I like to plan, I can’t take instructions or visit a place based on someone else’s planning! The HoHo bus was my enemy and so I figured I would find a different way to see the city.

We spoke to our second best friend, Google, and walked our way to a nice breakfast place. The things you see when you walk in a city are the best. We reached the main square and had a lavish breakfast. It was here we saw the astronomical clock, the town hall and other pretty buildings.

Then we saw a lot of people walking in one direction as if something free was being distributed. We followed with greed in our eyes and were treated with the best bridge of the city! Charles bridge is the most iconic part of Prague and has the most beautiful views. We didn’t know that we would be walking over it for atleast ten more times during the trip! 

We were hungry again and looked for a place to eat and drink. Prague has a number of breweries and we wanted to try atleast a few. The most famous according to Google was U Zlateho Tygra and so we ventured into it. Now this place was famous with the locals. You share tables and then some stories. We sat with a father-duo daughter from Prague and talked about so many things. They gave us names of other famous breweries in the city and well, our plan for the next few days was set. Instead of eating around a place of interest, we decided to see the places of interest AROUND the best eating spots!

Him on the bridge, us in the pub! Hazy pictures are symbolic of goofy times - or so I say!


All our walks in the city were towards some brewery or beer garden. In the process we discovered nooks and crannies of Prague which were not mentioned in any guide book. We saw some extremely beautiful views and loved each one of them. 

We just walked to eat and drink our three meals a day and saw pretty sights on the way. Despite what these pictures may suggest, I am NOT an alcoholic. Unfortunately, I don't have any pictures of food because we just pounce on it when it arrives!

Hot chocolate with Rum and a Beautiful church for a view!

It is not what you think it is. Just a regular ice-cream!

This place served toys with its cocktails and the square had horse driven carriages!

Oh, this brewery was in a monastry and had entire Prague for a view!

Frankly, I have many more pictures like this but I don't want you to think that this was just a beer trip!  For the love of new things, we even took a beer spa. Needless to say, finding this place in a unique neighbourhood was one of my favourite things of the trip.

You really do walk through these lanes and you really do bathe in beer :P


I have taken many planned trips before and after this. But this blind date with Prague was kind of a self exploration and remains my favourite. I had no expectations, I had no clue, I had not read anything and yet it blew my mind and was an extremely enriching experience.

To change overnight is a difficult thing, but I am now slowly understanding the perks of being spontaneous. My new mantra is - #Bucketlist is a passe, #SayYesToTheWorld and to #TheBlindList.

And my new name is – Nisha BlindList Punjabi. Ah, just kidding – I have enough mystery around me already with Punjabi!

#SayYesToTheWorld

Tuesday, October 16, 2018

An Ode to #TheBlindList


What do you want for your 10th anniversary?
A diamond, a watch or a blackberry?

I think I want a vacation that is oh-so-dreamy
In a land where I can feel like a princess, or a fairy!!


Your wish is my command, now pack your bags
We leave in a week – don’t forget the name-tags.

Where are we going - how can you plan so soon?
See, it has to be perfect, just like our honeymoon.

Be openminded and leave your worries behind
I promise you magic. Perfection? – that you can find.

We board the plane in a week, Lufthansa it is. 
Are we going to Germany? One hint please?

Yes my dear, but I myself don’t know exactly where
We will pick up a car at Frankfurt, and then see from there.

We have no hotels booked, don’t know which city? 
You want to start a trip with a fight? Oh, what a pity! 

We always had a bucket list, it is time to spice it up
Say yes to #TheBlindList, c’mon, buckle up! 



I have Goosebumps, my heart is racing
For an unusual, unplanned trip, my mind is bracing.

It is not that hard, just fill your eyes with wonder
Magic will take over, your worries will go under!


I am trusting your gut, let’s try this one time
If it doesn’t work, repercussions shall be prime!

Haha! Let’s disembark and pick up our reserved car
Believe you me, romance is not that far!



The drive is so scenic, is it all along the Autobahn?
The hills are so pretty, I wish I could just roll on!!

We will do that, and everything else you want to do
That's the beauty of this trip - explore things that are new.


So we stop at Wuzburg, then where do we go?
Is there a B & B, a motel or a hotel that we know?

We will see what we want, we will stop when we please
There are little towns in this country – we shall explore with ease.

The roads are so smooth, the towns are so quaint 
Alas I am not an artist, or this picture I could paint!

If you had known before, it might have been different
See you blindly followed my ploy, now you are content!


We stay in Wuzburg, we see the Residential palace 
We drive to Rothenburg, where I really feel like Alice!

On our way to Nuremburg, we will drive by a lake 
Do you want to stop there and try the black-forest cake?


I will do whatever feels good, this journey seems perfect
Why plan for tomorrow, right now, lets just get clicked!



Looks like you have a crush on this Romantic Road
Your eyes are so dreamy, you seem ready to pen an Ode!

I want to take a dip in the lake, and climb the rolling hills
I want to walk into that stable, and check out those wind mills.

Lets do that while we drive towards the majestic alps
See the road signs for Romantic Strasse? - we don’t need any maps!



Are we heading to Neuschwanstein? I have seen it in Disney
I already feel like a QUEEN, this is a very happy anniversary!

We sing songs along the way, we eat at random stops 
We dance like Bollywood stars without the usual props!

We see a number of Churches, the architecture wows us
This world is so beautiful, a nice travel partner is an added bonus!



Bucket List or The Blind one - which one is your favourite now?
Where do you want to go next so that you can say WOW!?

First I want to say Thanks, for making me see this side of me.
As for a place, TOGETHER is my favourite place to be!



#SayYesToTheWorld ..Always!

Monday, October 8, 2018

Me so Lucky!

Not writing is not fun. It makes me a boring person whom I absolutely hate. Also, social media sucks. I spend so much time there that I forget to come here and do what I love most - write.

Now that there is a contest around the corner, my grey cells are twisting and turning in their grave. It is time to reincarnate them. You see, I work best when there is a prize involved.

A few days back some friends and their kids came home. When they were leaving, one of our friends seem to have lost his wallet. We searched each and every corner, checked the cars, looked at the reception, dug into the diaper bags(!), but there was no sight of the wallet.

My biggest worry was what if someone threw it in the garbage? I had already thrown the garbage down the chute.

Anyway, to make the atmosphere less stressful and add fun into the whole ordeal I declared that whoever finds the purse will get 30 USD from the owner. He was in such a panicky state that he agreed. After all, his identity card for his trip back home to Saudi Arabia was in it!

As I said, I work best when there is a prize involved. Within two minutes of declaring the prize, I found the wallet! It was hidden from the kids behind the mandir, probably by the guy himself when he was feeding his own child.

I won another prize in fluke by just participating in a silly Instagram contest. It has been the easiest 500 USD that I have earned. Did I say social media sucks - absolutely not.

Social media is what you make out of it. Some days you need an inspiration to lose weight - you check out before and after stories on Instagram. On other days, you might be feeling blue - click a selfie and fetch some compliments! Believe it or not, no matter how ugly you are, those who love you will call you beautiful.

Why and how I will never know!

Some call social media a place where people post only happy things while their life might be miserable. Yes, it is true that we post happy things because happiness is meant to be shared with the world and despair is meant to be shared with only those who will care about it. Trust me, when you share anything sad, most people are just looking for gossip or, the sadists that we are, looking for things that make our life look better.

Social media may suck if you spend too much time on it. It may suck when you unnecessarily stalk someone. It may suck when you get jealous. All these things can be controlled by a strong will and a happy attitude. Well, I've got it all, and I have won a prize as well, so you worry about yourself!

The biggest high in my life right now are not these lucky moments of glory, it is my newest physiotherapist. I have a tendency to be impressed with the new ones since I always get a fresh perspective. And so I gave this one a few sessions. After 24 sessions I still love her and look forward to going to the clinic every other day.

Will it help me in any way? - only time will tell that. As of now I am just happy to have found her. I am just happy that hope remains the single most important thing in my life. Struggles continue but I am grateful that God has always been kind and He continues to shower His blessings.

Like He will shower his wisdom on me and I will continue to write and win more prizes in the coming months!

*Note to self* WRITE MORE.