2022 - So far, so bad!

 

Sir chakraye, raha na jaaye

Itna dizzy, ki kya bataye

March mein laga life badal gayi

July tak sab bigad gaya

October mein sab bhaad mein jaaye

November mein zor shor se 40^th manaye

Haaye December, tu kuch khush khabari laaye

Warna 2022, tu jaake apni G**** C******!!!!!

 

I am not the one to swear, but man this year has been a blast. The only way this year can redeem itself is by giving us one good news that we are waiting for. There are many things wrong with 2022, but there have been some right things too. Yes, we look at the bright side, but man, this is tough.

 I was finally diagnosed with the correct disorder this year in March. After several visits to the doctors, I saw a ray of hope. We went to Italy and celebrated in May. After coming back, I started with life altering medication. However, Covid struck in June, and it all went down. I had been doing a lot of affirmations, positive thinking, meditation, et al. but nothing could stop what was coming my way.

I went for two vacations in July and then in August – both were nightmarish due to my ill health. I don’t want to get into details but what followed was a month of PTSD. I was not clinically diagnosed, but I could feel it in every inch of my body. A lot of will power went behind getting up from the bed every single day, getting out of the house was another story which I want to forget.

September and October were again hellish with certain other things which I can’t disclose here. Yet I am planning my grand birthday party to get over this trauma and create some memories which might have the power to wipe out the depression that has been this year.

I am really hoping and praying for December to be better. I have never asked God for help so many times in my life and sometimes it feels it might never end. And then I think of things people go through and my thing may not be so bad.

I might be writing more swears in my poetry if things don’t change. And if they do, so many good news await this place that I might run out of space!! Right now, I am going to run, I mean, barely able to walk to my physiotherapist who is now tired of my constant crying, just like this blog?

Whatever! Wish me luck guys, I realllyyyyy need it!