Just Being Me

As I lay in my bed thinking what I have done

Told the truth to my love, second to none.

Transparency in everything – that’s how I wanted my marriage to begin.

Then why am I made to believe that I’ve committed a sin?

You loved me with all your heart,

Promised - ‘til death do us part.

I vowed to be faithful, respectful and a loving wife.

You are now, and forever will be, my life.

Then why a fragment from my past shook you like this?

What made you so skeptical that you won’t even kiss?

I've told you about Him before - He and I were young and ruthless,

Crazy in love, absolutely relentless.

I thought love was unity of body and soul.

I thought I was smart, absolutely in control.

Don’t get me wrong, I didn’t make a mistake,

My love was true, nothing was fake.

We were responsible adults, yet it didn’t work out.

It meant everything to me, yet now, I’m living without.

And then you came, like a prince on a horse,

To begin a lifetime of romance, like a fairy-tale ofcourse.

You decided to wait till we tied the knot.

In our roller-coaster ride, I almost forgot.

I wanted to be truthful, keep every promise,

Shouldn’t THAT be a marriage’s basis?

I believe in God, have love for Him in my heart

Baseless religious beliefs mean nothing to me from the start.
Sex, to me, was a part of love,

A natural consequence created by the Lord above.

I don’t wish to erase it all with a magic wand

But I’m all yours now, I wish you’d understand.

Our beliefs differ, but our values remain the same,

I won’t make excuses ‘coz they all seem lame.

You’ve asked for time, that I’ll give,

I won’t apologise, ‘coz there’s nothing to forgive.

Yes, I had pre-marital sex and it was a big deal.

I was in love; loved how he made me feel.

It wasn’t as if I slept with every other guy,

If that’s what you conclude, then I guess it’s a goodbye.

I’m a loyal, passionate and caring person, that’s how I’m always going to be.

Sex before marriage doesn’t determine my morals, and I won’t EVER let it define me.

This poem is written for a contest on IndiBlogger where bloggers have to give their opinion on pre-marital sex. The entries will be judged by Poonam Uppal who has recently written a book called A Passionate Gospel of True Love : A Mystical True Love Story. You can order your copy here.