As I write this, I have an excruciating pain. God knows from where it emerged, but it sure made my life hell for 3 hours. It's getting better now, but the anger isn't subsiding.
Yes, I get angry when I get sick. I blame it on the things I did wrong to get into that state. I even get angry when someone else isn't feeling well. So don't come crying to me if you're unwell! I'm harsh that way.
I accuse myself for everything that goes wrong around me. It's my way of expecting less from the universe. Fortunately or unfortunately, I never punish myself for 'my' mistakes. It's both a blessing and a curse.
Today, I take the blame for not feeling my 100%. If I know the way to feel better, if I have all the faculties, if I have all the time, then what on earth stops me? Today I take the blame for letting another year go by without giving my 100% to what I set out to do.
Will I resent? I doubt. Will I make a resolution? I'm not sure. Then how do I move forward? HELP!!!!
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